Life is never dull

Life is never what you seem. People Deceive you. Take advantage of you. I am sad. Sad that I wasn't good enough. Sad the reasons for his departure were immature. I will come out ahead. His loss. That is what I need to remind myself. I am a good person. I am someone who deserves the very best. And if your not capable of giving that to me. Then it's good that you are gone now. I'm just sad that my package... Wasn't worth your time. Your loss. Truly your loss. Because I had a lot to offer you. More than you maybe realized. 

Xo

Jenny

A Day at Canyon Lake

Well I was bound and determined to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE today.  For many reasons, I have not had the energy to.  But today, thanks to dear friends, Meg and Dan.  The boys and I joined their family for a day at the lake.

Meg and Dan are amazing!  They are wonderful parents and wonderful foster parents and amazing followers of our Lord.  They came into my life through me having the courage to join a small group through church.  I have been blessed ever since.  I love hanging out with their family.  Mia is a hoot and I love her to pieces!  Sophia will be joining their forever family this September.  She is a lucky girl.

Now the boys and I are back home showered and settled.  I have made popcorn for our movie marathon night.  I am blessed beyond words and I just need to keep reminding myself of the wonderful people who surround me.

Me and my beautiful Boys :- )

My Boys with Mia - Sand Castle Building :-) 

Hopefully poor Mia wasn't scared from these crazy boys!

The Man

Sophia - All tuckered out!

What a great day! Blessed more than I know...

San Deigo

We arrived safely on Friday evening. The kids climbed the rock climbing wall and had a good time playing with Zoe. 

Saturday we woke up and took our time getting ready to head to the beach. Once wel climbed down the huge cliff the beach was ours. Not very many people at all. Just surfers. 

Both boys tested out the surf boards and jackson went out more times than Jacob. We built sand castles and dug for sand crabs.

Had a wonderful arugula chop salad with red wine for dinner. Pam, Jodi's mom stopped by and joined us! 

Zoe and jenny

The boys rock wall climbing: 

Below is the harder climb. Chris tilted the board so you were literally hanging. Jacob rocked it! 

Beach fun! 

Courage

It takes courage to have tough conversations.  Whether in person or over email.  Yesterday I had to be courageous and put my feelings out there.  Knowing full well that the answer I get, when I get it, may not be the answer I want.  But you never know.  Maybe I will get an answer that is good.

But in the end I put myself out there.  I had courage to say how I felt.  I had what I call a tough conversation. I deserve much happiness in my life.  I am an amazing women with lots to offer.  And I am cute!  LOL  

Now more courage...  Not that lots will be needed...But I am off to court to OFFICIALLY change my name!!!!  OVERBY here I come!!!  I will be celebrating this weekend in San Diego with my BFF Jodi and her family.  Her hubby, Chris Linder a professional rock climber now engineer, will take the boys out climbing and surfing!!!  My kids couldn't be more stoked!!! I am looking forward to building sand castles and just hanging out on the beach!

A big thank you to my friend and Neighbor Amy!  She is watching my kiddos for me today while I head to court.  She is an awesome lady and has been a huge blessing to me!

Everyone have a fabulous weekend!  Pictures will be posted once I get home!

Love to all,
Jenny

PS: Whos reading this?  I am curious to know...Susan I think you do!

Parenting

Well we are on week 4 or 5 of my new plan. I am happy to report that it is working!!! Big pat on my back.   ( pat pat pat) I am sure it was harder  or is harder for me than for the boys. Consistency, consistency, consistency. Which is it exhausting in itself. They have adjusted and do their chores. I am quite pleased. 

Even on a tough day. They know there will be no privilege unless they behave well and do as their told. 

On other news... A couple I knew from my small group at church lost their four-month-old son unexpectedly. They went into the doctor because he was unresponsive. They found out after a CT scan that he had a massive brain tumor. They got only hours. Very heart breaking. Please lift up joe, Becky and their other son Zach as they deal with their loss. 

Transforming my life... One day at a time.

I have been working out a lot more. I find it an awesome way to release frustration and feel energized. 

For some crazy reason.... I also thought I should do a 30 day ab challenge. What was I thinking? But me and my friend Michelle are doing it! My tummy hurts! 

But everything is working. So far 5lbs down. Back to my pre vacation weight. Which means I already lost 12 lbs on top of that 5! My ultimate weight means I need to lose another 10. That should put me comfortably wearing a size 8! I enjoy the 10's I currently wear but unwell gladly give them up! 

Eating healthy and logging my food helps. LOVE my fitness pal!!! I enter my recipes. And I know exactly how many calories I'm eating. Plus I am eating deliciously healthily!!!

I love who I am now. But I can't wait to see my transformation in less than 30 days. Maybe I'll lose my tankini... Ok that might be going to far!!  Lol

After a nice tough 30 minute run! 

Scrap booking weekend starts now....

It's been an incredibly long day to say the least. I am excited that tomorrow I will start my weekend away. The one time of year I can truly forget about everything. And simply have fun for me! I'm going to scrapbook my hearts content! The only thing I wish, is that I could get a massage. Because being able to move my neck would be priceless! 

All of my bags are packed, the coolers are ready. I just need to put the fridge items in there with a bag of ice! I'm going to be ready to hit the road tomorrow at 8:30! I am hoping after all of our stops on her way to the hotel. I can be poolside with a beverage in hand by 1 o'clock!

I will have a fancy gym to workout in, and 8 feet of table space to scrapbook on! Life can't get much better than that!

Just sayin..

I deserve happiness....

I do. I deserve only the best. I deserve to be cared about and worthy of someone time. Whether it be a man or a friend. I AM an amazing person. I deserve happiness. 

Enough said

UPCOMING WEEKEND:

Well it has been a n interesting few days that is or sure.  I am ready for my scrapbooking retreat this weekend.  I will be able to sit for hours to do what I love.  SCRAPBOOK!!!  Dalia and my sister won't be there :-( but I am sure Jennifer and I will have loads of fun.  The fun starts bright and early tomorrow morning!  I am sure I will wake up early pack the car up THEN shower and get ready for the day.  I am all packed and truly think I downsized!  I am only bringing what I think I can get done.  Leaving all the "just in case" stuff at home.  Because each year I never get to it.

My goal Thursday night is to do some serious sticker organization and loose all the stuff I have held onto and NEVER use!  I will give it to Crops of Luv.  They can use it on the albums they make for terminally ill kids.

MY BOYS:
The boys are doing well.  Karate is their life line right now.  They love that and minecraft videos.  They are anxious to see Robert and his boys.  But I am not sure when that will be as they are still in San Diego for the summer.  Jackson earned and XBOX from him and he is anxious to have his reward.  They really like Robert which is good.  Because so do I.  Next weekend we head to SD to see my friend Jodi and her husband Chris.  We will be spending it at the beach. They are excited.  I wish we could see Robert and the boys for a few hours.  But as sad as it is.  We will not be seeing them. Breaks my heart knowing the reasons why.  But such is life.

ME:
Well I have been missing my family and Robert like crazy.  But that is life I guess.  What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?  At least I hope it does.  I have been busy working in the house and getting everything in order for the upcoming school year and now working from home.  I just took a job with Vivid Racing.  I am so super excited.  I will be working from home doing data entry.  So pray I am able to pick up quickly on the training so I can start making some money!!!

I am still with Robert.  I do deeply care about him.  But it has been harder for me having him in San Diego.  He on the other hand I think is use to the distance so it doesn't bother him.  But I guess time will tell where we go.  Its been 10 months so far.  I have come to realize what will be will be.

Well I hope all is well with the world.  No one reads my blog so its really just my outlet I guess.  LOL  But that is fine by me.  Better than Facebook that is for sure.

Nerves cause me to cook with butter...

So I grilled pork chops in garlic herb butter and made mashed potatoes... All good comfort food. Prayers needed that everything went ok this evening. I need someone to call me back!!!!!

Happy 4th!

Well I spent all day yesterday at my friend Jennifer's house. We had a wonderful time! Watching all the fast and the furious movies and cooking! Well actually she cooked, I ate it! Her husband and I were her taste testers! I had so much fun hanging out with their sweet girl Charlotte. It was fun to have some little girl time. I even got to put one of my famous princess braids in her hair.

Then this morning instead of leaving right away. I hung around. Had some wonderful egg frittata. Scrumptious coffee. And of course Jennifer and I had to finish watching our last movie out of the six. By the time I left it was almost lunchtime! Then I made the dreaded mistake of going to Walmart. But I was patient and got what I needed. I chose to go there on the fourth. So what should I expect? LOL

Then once I got groceries put away. And I was finally home putting up my feet. I got a call from my friend Cassandra. We essentially kidnapped me for my home. Andrade me to fireworks. And I am so glad she did! We had a blast.  She and her husband have three boys. And we are all crazy!

I am anxious for Sunday to arrive to have my two little pipsqueaks here. 

I hope everyone had a safe and wonderful fourth of July!

Jenny

Fun day with friends!

Well I got loads of sleep that felt absolutely amazing.  Woke up, coffee and then off for a fun day. Movie, lunch, fast and the furious movies, dinner and of course wine! I had some fun time with this cute girl! 

Now time for bed! I'm tired! 

Churching...

Has to be one of the hardest things to do. Find a church where you feel like you belong. Thought i had found that with mission. But the ex and his fiancé go there too. At first it didn't bother me becAuse we would end up in different services. But it's come to a point where I have not been going because quite frankly I dont want to run into them. 

So today I headed back to the old spring of life campus which was taken over by Christ church if the valley. Or CCV.  I was pleasantly surprised that it felt good. Even though I may have aged a few tears, it was till good. Sometimes you just need to unload your worries on God. And know that he's got this. Even though you don't understand people, friends, men and kids. God knows that in the end he will take care of you. 

Let's hope that next week is as promising as this week. Church wise! Otherwise I just want clarity about my future. That's what I'm praying for. 

Karate belt test time!!!!

What a great day!! Boys did awesome at their belt tests!!  I am one proud mama!!! 

Jackson's turn!!!

Legos, tutoring, errands, pedi, oil change

Well it's 3 and I feel like I've accomplished nothing. Even though I have several items crossed off my list. I'm currently awaiting my oil change and to see howuch new break pads in the front are going to set me back. Yuck!!

Well the biggest part of my day was connecting with Jodi. So glad I can save the money on a hotel And stay with her and Chris in San deigo! I plan on just taking the kids to the beach for the whole weekend. I wanted to FIRM up a trip out there. The kids need some beach time and so do I! I will cross my fingers and hope the Robert will make some iem for us. But who knows. I will never understand men and their ways of thinking. 

Here is Jackson's revised NAVY ship. He's so proud of it! He's a master Lego builder!!

Always being fertilized...

Tough lessons

Seems the boys are having a hard time turning I thier listening ears. This is where being a single parent is exhausting. No back up. Ahhhh but I will win. I am winning. 

Wishing I was in SD

With this guy... I miss him terribly....

What a day!

What an amazing day! Filled with a nap on the hammock, 3 Mille walk, good conversation, corn hole, friends, elk shining and just flat out fun!! Someday I'll own a cabin somewhere. A place I can take my boys and relax away the city life.